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L I S T E N
blogs do NOT equal angsty emo rants.
come on and lift me up its a brand new day
open up a little happiness today
so i can be someone new
come on and lift me up to a better wa)
open up a smile on another face
so i can feel something new
P R O F I L E
happier being you. ok being me :)
hey, i'm known as joyeeta, joy,
jo. whatever 'tickles your fancy'. i love my
music.
that's a lie. my music is horrible. i like
other peoples music. that's true.
as for tv; house. little britain,
scrubs. two and a half men.
too many movies to list all of them,
but the dark knight. wall-e. moulin rouge. juno.
edward scissorhands. little miss sunshine. nightmare before christmas. are a few.
i really won't even try to list the music. too much music.
i don't want to vomit up too much information incase there's some crazy stalkers out there.
i'm looking at
you crazy stalker.
♥
F O U R T E E N
things on my to do list.
why not
ONE get above 80% on a maths test.
TWO rid myself of people who don't matter.
THREE make a cd with a band.
FOUR finish something i start. like the 100 theme art challenge.
FIVE spend time with people i'm losing.
SIX make a good short film.
SEVEN art collaboration with somebody.
EIGHT change someone. in a good way.
NINE fly
TEN read more
chuck palahniuk books.
ELEVEN cover a whole room with fake grass.
TWELVE create something that will last
THIRTEEN i want to not be afraid.
FOURTEEN ♥
T W E E T
C B O X
i think you have to refresh the whole page to see new posts. because it's gay, that's why.
drastic movement.
7:17 pm - Wednesday, June 24
for the past few days, i've been contemplating giving my room a new look. cleaner and less cramped. this meant that i would have to rip all my memories off my wall. that's the only thing stopping me from doing it. but today i've finally decided that it would have to happen some day and i'd rather rip the stuff off before i start to hate it all.to those of you who have various memories on my walls also, do not worry, i have a memory box in which all objects of reasonable importance will be stored. most of it seems to be joanna's various sketchs and notes. that big heart from virginia that i found under my pillow. the reciept. concert ticket. those sorts of things. other than that i'm ripping it all down, my big house picture is gone. so's my chocolate and funny road signs. and does anybody want a panic at the disco poster? or a wiggles one. and i have a andy warhol campbells soup print from the new york contemporary art museum that i want to give away. andy warhol self portrait ' the world fascinates me' print. i just don't want to throw that sort of stuff away, but i don't really want to have to store it anywhere.
this is is a few months ago. it looked a bit different this month, but i don't have a photo of that.RIP awesome wallit lived a long an healthy life24/06/09
strawberry kisses.
6:26 pm - Monday, June 22
Ten things I wish I could say to ten different people right now: (Mine may apply to two or more people)
1. i'm so incredibly happy for you,
2. you have a massive head, stop being an ass, sir.
3. you have a flair that i can't quite get a hold of, you amaze me.
4. your smile shines, your laugh brightens a mood.
5. you never cease to dazzle me. i love you very much.
6. don't ever lie to me, i know you better than that.
7. you've always been there.
8. i'm going to miss you so much,
9. i wish you went to baulko.
10. i don't really know what to say about you, you've let me down.
Nine things about myself:
1. i have to go to guitar lessons now. so i'll continue this later.
2. *later* i wish a had a conscience. i'm so terrible at making my own desicions, everything i do seems to have a bad effect on the people around me and it makes me feel terrible.
3. when i think of my long term future, i think of sydney, i think of families. i never imagine university and jobs.
4. i love to sew and create things. anything really.
5. i am still extremely close with my father. extremely.
6. i feel guilty and shameful when i view the contents of my wardrobe. but i hate the thought of having less.
7. i was an accident,
8. i have learnt to keep my accomplishments to myself. aside from the obvious, there are often times where i'm extremely proud of myself. like when i achieve a personal goal, or mend a friendship, or create something. when i am, i get home and take out my special teapot and teacup and celebreat on my own. sometimes i stop and think if this is a very lonely act. then i decided that i don't care since my teapot only makes enough for two cups and it only comes with one cup so..
9. i dont' care what people think, unles they mean a lot to me. in which case i care a lot what they think.
Eight ways to win my heart!:
1. make me a card, dont buy one! [ i agree with jo ]
2. help me organize things, but let me do most of the planning, despite what you may think, it makes me happy.
3. don't ever buy me clothes
4. be open minded. just because you don't like osmething doesn't mean it sucks, or is bad. it doesn't mean that what you like is better. just not your cup of tea. [ currently drinking tea ]
5. when i'm hyper. leave me be.
6. suprise me
7. have fun around me or have fun with me
8. let me help you, i don't like it when people refuse my help.
Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1. him
2. my sister
3. bangladesh
4. the future
5. the world at large
6. people i care about.
7. the way the sky is so perfectly empty.
Six things I do before I fall asleep:
1. brush my teeth.
2. put on my plate.
3. climb a ladder.
4. throw two to three three piece of electronis equipment into the air.
5. drink honey milk.
6. arrange my pillows so that the six of them won't fall off my single bed.
Four things you're wearing right now:
1. my silver necklace with my name in bangla on it (:
2. leggings
3. a pair of glasses
4. a bra :o
Three songs that you listen to often: [ right now? ]
1. strawberry kisses - nikki webster
2. her diamonds - rob thomas
3. yer so bad - eric ronick and jon walker cover [ tom petty ]
Two things you want to do before you die:
1. fly.
2. settle down.
One confession:
i cry a lot. people think that because i cry a lot, my crying doesn't mean anything, doesn't carry very much emotion. that i'm just some weak little girl. partially yes, but when i cry it means i'm feeling extreme sadness or frustration or guilt or even sometimes anger. you've probably seen how extreme my happiness can get, i go bezerk. apply the same amount of emotion to the other end of the chart and that's what my crying is.
LifeAvoidance* Syndrome Initial Theory Paper
9:12 pm - Monday, June 15
There are many disease and condition that many of us may contract during our lifetimes. These include diabetes, chickenpox, cancer, the flu, heart disease. But the worst of these diseases is yet to be widely recognised by the public. This disease seems to have effected the majority of teenagers nowadays and is increasingly becoming something that we should all be very aware of. It is LifeAvoidance* Syndrome. You have probably already been infected. There are two versions of this Syndrome. Here's some information on the syptoms;Type One - LazedWhiners*. People with this disease will sit at their computers, with their various chat screens open, furiously insisting to the conversation reciever that they are bored and have absolutely nothing to do other that repeatedly type the same set of words to half the people in their contact list (perhaps in an attempt to cure said boredness). The other person, often a person who is not bored, will bleakly reply something along the lines of "Watch TV" followed by the response "I can't be bothered." These people will usually, in reality, have quite a lot of things available to do. Most commonly, tasks like homework and assignments that will not be done till the night before or participating in family activities such as talking. Those effected by the disease and also have social lives that sadly do not extend to 10pm on a school night, can be found up until 12am nudging, IMing, emailing and stalking the few other beings left online. This often leads to such people being blocked and deleted and sunken deeper into the depths of the world of the social cripple.Type two - The Motivationless* This type of person has a simple problem: admitting that they are bored. These people have tricked their minds into believing that because there is a pixel box set infront of them, and the pixels are lit up, this must mean that they will remain entertained till the computer appliance is turned off. People suffering from this disease will never admit to themselves or others that they are bored. When there is a lack of conversation on msn and they've finished checking all their favourite sites for updates, finished watching the latest from their favourite youtube channel and finished downloading their latest batch of illicit music, the person will proceed to click through the web, attempting to find something of interest. They will often repeatedly go back to sites they've already checked such as blogger or deviantart, in the hope that in the last ten minutes, one of their friends will have posted something new that they can read or view in order to maintain their state of entertainment for a few more seconds, or minutes maybe. Like the LazyWhiners*, they wil also usually have other tasks to perform or attend to. The person with the ailment may end up posting numerous twitters, or comment on each photo in the entirety of a facebook photo album. Or write long boring blogs..In severe cases:
Patient then proceeds to kick themselves mentally and note that they should probably get some sleep, as tomorrow is another day at 'The Second Best School In The State' (or whatever school applies). So they brush their teeth, get into their jimjams and whatnot and proceed to get some shuteye. But little do they know how powerful the low hum of the computer can be. Slowly, yet surely, they are drawn back into the computer seat and continue to clack awway at the keyboard for the next hour or so.
How to reduce the syptoms or even cure this disease;
The cure to this horrible disease is simply to develop a bit more will power. We are all capable of fighting off this ailment but we must first get off our lazy arses and re-discover the world outside of our pixel homes. This is a plea for all of you people who know very well that you are suffering from this disease to join with the both of us in attempt to fight this disease, we must not let it defeat us! So the next time you find yourself saying the 'b word' or mindlessly clicking through the net, get out of that seat and explore your home. Tie the loose ends between you and your family. We are all aware of how dettached we've gotten from our families at this ages, go and help out around the house, or just sit with members of your family and chat. Take up a hobby, or relive one that you slowly let go. We are up for some baking, nothing like baked goods on a week night. Making them at home is much cheaper than buying those overpriced ones from the canteen, no? Maybe you can sew, or paint, or make movies (short film fest soon, hmm. Maybe your ultimate hobby is sleeping. Don't you just adore sleeping early and feeling great and fresh when you wake up the next morning? Maybe even, and i know this sound riduculous, but what about get started on that assignment of yours that you've tucked away. It'll pay off not to be one of the ones working on it last minute as usual.
All we ask of you teenagers, is that you give it a fair go. Try to live a little less like drones.
Pass it on.
- Prof. Joanna J and Prof. Joyeeta C
* These names are very rough and we would appreciate anybody with a better name for any of the asterixed terms to come forth with their suggestions. You will be somehow rewarded maybe.
exempt
9:34 pm - Friday, June 12
Ooh. I'm so generally happy. I got a good mark on my english essay, something I absolutely didn't expect, i expected much worse. like you said, a pessimists life is good. we're never dissapointed and we get lots of suprises. i'm also very excited for this drama play that we're to perform some time later this year. i'm hoping to get the gillian part, but i'm not sure if i'll be able to remember all those lines. if only somebody could make it a song...
also, i did purchase the sims three, finally. as far as i've played, i'm not yet hooked. at all. in fact i'm almost not liking it. it feel like i'm just playing that dodgy xbox version. mmph, i guess it'll take me time to adjust. and when i first started playing, i thought they turned edge scrolling off and i literally almost cried becuase i'd never make it without that. then i realised i could just click the button in the options menu and ta-da! edge scrolling for all! the characters are fun the create. and they do act a little more realistically, more personalities too. but i'm not sure. i just don't like it. the taxis are free now. that weirds me out.
my mother bought the entertainment book. it has all these awesome food vouchers in it. i was looking through the restaurants and i found a restaurant called the Kaizens BBQ. that made my day. it's jap/korean so i don't know what the food will be but the name is awesome cool. i'm beginning to hate my nails again. one e broke and now it looks like a i bit it. and i have like little skin peelies [ speelies ] around my fingernails. they make me sad and angry. but at least the nails are generally shiney and longish.
i'm currently drinking orange juice. i brought the whole bottle into my room and i have a glass and a straw and i'm just continuosly refilling it. makes me happy to know theres no effort in getting more. i really need to change my clothes, i'm still in my school uniform. i need to resist the urge of putting too much stuff on my lips. gloss and chapstick makes you an addict. my mum said that lipstick is the best chapstick, so i just tried that. it actually works..
the thought of op-shops is making me happy. me and some girls are going out for a day to sift through some op shops / second hand stores and such. vinnies and salvos are bargain heaven if your dedicated. they're also awesome if you need a costume for something, if you know what your'e looking for, it's dead easy to find. i found a whole brendon urie outfit from i write sins not tragedies videoclip bar the tophat and cane, although i do believe i would have found those if i had looked a little bit harder. once i went to an antique store thats a two minutes walk from my dads, the one that i bought my bottle of keys from, and then had a whole tub of walking sticks, just like when house boughta new cane. i was hoping they had one with speed flames but they didn't. i keep having random dreams where i buy ten or so of those and open one of those old places where people dance in hats and swing round canes and sip fancy drinks.
anyway, finally got up and changed, raied a few thoughts. first of all, when and where did i get these TotalGirl tights/longjohns ? its got TOTALGIRL written down the side of my right or left left in sparkly pink font. second, i want more coloured socks, i have a plain yellow pair and a plain purple pair. i want the rest of the [sixcoloured] rainbow [ indigo mooshes with violet in my rainbow ]. third, i can't believe how comfotable my dads pants are. fourth, the pa skull sleep jumper thing seems to have stretched since that time i vacuumed it to get the grass off... and lastly i have WAY too many pj's.. i made a discovery while putting away my sumer nightwear this year. i have about 18 or 20 pairs of sleep shorts. no, thats not including day shorts or night pants. just those night shorts. 18.. not to mention the tops, the pants, the sleeping jumpers, the flannel sets that i never wear, the ones my mum stitched for me too.
argh. blog too long. i should stop being so bored,
goodnight .
stars.
11:09 am - Monday, June 8
last night, on the way back from nowhere, my dad was almos falling asleep at the wheel so we had to talk about vastly interesting things to keep him awake. we talked about the universe (: here's some things i find very fascinating and a little bit strange.- there is no up and there is no down. there never has been, there never will be.
- we are insignificant, tiny. we are virtually nothing.
- we only have one star in our solar system, and yet when we look up from the damp grass that we're lying on, we can see hundreds - even thousands on a good night.
- the stars we see are most likely hundreds of times bigger than our wee little sun.
- we started with a bang. or at least billions of years after a bang. a big one.
- the impact of that bang is still detectable today.
- even compared to the other planets in our solar system, we are still pretty small.
- when we look into the sky, we're looking into the past. waaaaaay back, millions of years back.
- we're always moooooooooving
That's all i can think up right now since my head is spinning like hell. i don't even know if hell spins. i fit does, that's awesome, one mor ething to look forward to after death. what am i talking about, oh well. bye.
10:57 pm - Wednesday, June 3
Step 1: Put your music player on shuffle. Step 2: Post the first line from the first 20, 25, 30 or 35 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing. See which of your friends can name the most songs. Step 3: Strike out the songs when someone guesses both artist and track correctly. Step 4: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING! Step 5: If you like the game post your own.Step 6: Tag at least 20 friends to guess.
LETS GO
1. what would we do?
usually drink, usually dance, usually babble
2. there is a world inside the world that you see
and it'sok to count the minutes cause how many could there be?
3. met a girl, thought she was grand
fell in love, found out first hand. Vaids.
4. slapp av me komme snart igjen
du vett me får tilstrekkelig med stipend Turfer
5. i'll tell you what i want, what i raelly really want
so tell me what you want, what you really really want. Turfer.
6. i-i-i-i can't explain a thing,
i-i-i-i want everything. Lauren.
7. so it's a private education,
but it's not getting any esaier
8. i wanna be rich and i want lots of money
i don't care about clever i don't care about funny Stef.
9. i have never craved the system's sympathy
iget restless over pity's minds
10. lovers, keep on the road you're on
runners, until the race is run
11. big city life, me try fi get by
pressure nah ease up no matter how hard me try Turfer.
12. stop stalling, make a name for yourself
boy you'd better put the pen to paper and charm your way out Vaids
13. 17 and running up the stairs my baby bear
7 lonely hours that i've been without a shower Turfer.
14. is there a hole in my heart or am i mistaken
i can see your capillary veins
15. wilted flowers that i gave
not as nice as your bouqet
16. just as you take my hand
just as you write my number down
17. well it woulda been, coulda been
worse than you would ever know
18. i've been buried in the sand
i've come down with no place to land
19. if i was a flower growing wild a free
all i'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee Vaids
20. i can see what's happening. what?
and they don't have a clue. who?
21. i don't think that passenger seat
has ever looked this good to me. Vaids.
22. take back the city for yourself tonight
i'll take back the city for me.
23. the dawn is breaking
a light's shining through. Vaids
24. its as simple as somehing that nobody knows
that her eyes are as big as her bubbly toes
25. oh man! come on now!
bee boopety boi boi babeti boo bai be doo boo boopety.
26. the record goes, from blue to gold
so thank you for all your help
27. ooh baby don't you know i suffer
but aaw baby can you hear me moan?
28. you might have seen one out in minnesota
or maybe by the sea i nsarasota
29. i'm nto saying it was your fault
although you could've done more
30. lets drop!
yeah!
come on! Stef.
Good luck!
as a side note go away.
(:
