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strawberry kisses.

6:26 pm - Monday, June 22

Ten things I wish I could say to ten different people right now: (Mine may apply to two or more people)
1. i'm so incredibly happy for you,
2. you have a massive head, stop being an ass, sir.
3. you have a flair that i can't quite get a hold of, you amaze me.
4. your smile shines, your laugh brightens a mood.
5. you never cease to dazzle me. i love you very much.
6. don't ever lie to me, i know you better than that.
7. you've always been there.
8. i'm going to miss you so much,
9. i wish you went to baulko.
10. i don't really know what to say about you, you've let me down.

Nine things about myself:
1. i have to go to guitar lessons now. so i'll continue this later.
2. *later* i wish a had a conscience. i'm so terrible at making my own desicions, everything i do seems to have a bad effect on the people around me and it makes me feel terrible.
3. when i think of my long term future, i think of sydney, i think of families. i never imagine university and jobs.
4. i love to sew and create things. anything really.
5. i am still extremely close with my father. extremely.
6. i feel guilty and shameful when i view the contents of my wardrobe. but i hate the thought of having less.
7. i was an accident,
8. i have learnt to keep my accomplishments to myself. aside from the obvious, there are often times where i'm extremely proud of myself. like when i achieve a personal goal, or mend a friendship, or create something. when i am, i get home and take out my special teapot and teacup and celebreat on my own. sometimes i stop and think if this is a very lonely act. then i decided that i don't care since my teapot only makes enough for two cups and it only comes with one cup so..
9. i dont' care what people think, unles they mean a lot to me. in which case i care a lot what they think.

Eight ways to win my heart!:
1. make me a card, dont buy one! [ i agree with jo ]
2. help me organize things, but let me do most of the planning, despite what you may think, it makes me happy.
3. don't ever buy me clothes
4. be open minded. just because you don't like osmething doesn't mean it sucks, or is bad. it doesn't mean that what you like is better. just not your cup of tea. [ currently drinking tea ]
5. when i'm hyper. leave me be.
6. suprise me
7. have fun around me or have fun with me
8. let me help you, i don't like it when people refuse my help.

Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1. him
2. my sister
3. bangladesh
4. the future
5. the world at large
6. people i care about.
7. the way the sky is so perfectly empty.

Six things I do before I fall asleep:
1. brush my teeth.
2. put on my plate.
3. climb a ladder.
4. throw two to three three piece of electronis equipment into the air.
5. drink honey milk.
6. arrange my pillows so that the six of them won't fall off my single bed.

Four things you're wearing right now:
1. my silver necklace with my name in bangla on it (:
2. leggings
3. a pair of glasses
4. a bra :o

Three songs that you listen to often: [ right now? ]
1. strawberry kisses - nikki webster
2. her diamonds - rob thomas
3. yer so bad - eric ronick and jon walker cover [ tom petty ]

Two things you want to do before you die:
1. fly.
2. settle down.

One confession:
i cry a lot. people think that because i cry a lot, my crying doesn't mean anything, doesn't carry very much emotion. that i'm just some weak little girl. partially yes, but when i cry it means i'm feeling extreme sadness or frustration or guilt or even sometimes anger. you've probably seen how extreme my happiness can get, i go bezerk. apply the same amount of emotion to the other end of the chart and that's what my crying is.

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